Ok, ladies and gents. Currently laying down and there’s a battle in my head of conflicting interests. This battle started two years ago in April of 2009. The same time I was about 100% sure that I was traveling to Japan. The same time I had already been decided that I will Live until I Die, and experience everything I can in the World of the Living while being governed by my morals and principles. The operative words: Morals and Principles. As any other word, phrase, symbol, idol, figure, etc., anything and everything has a meaning, or rather lack of meaning, depending on who you have become to be. Morals and Principles’ importance to me are immeasurable, and I try my best not to diverge from and break them. However, that has been quite arduous in these last couple years. I can’t “Fuck the world with a long dick, and give the universe my damn tongue” if my upright ideals conflict with it. To keep it simple, my problem is that I’m not a stereotypical Nigga nor am I someone who always pick the Right decisions. I am a combination of the two. I am the guy who wants, needs, and desires the best of both worlds (iitoki-dori). It is possible to attain the best of both words, but not without breaking my principles. Perpetual Inner War… and its getting on my fucking nerves. At the end of the day I live with No Regrets, so I’ll be a “Good” Nigga for now. Just another day in the life of me (no smiley face).
Perpetual Inner War